Something that I struggle with every day is maintaining a feeling of worthiness even when others are treating me badly. That I don’t have to be treated badly is a task for another life time. Right now, I just have to learn how to hold on to feeling good about myself. Normally, the slippery slope [...]
Smile, Breathe, Go Slowly
‘Smile, breathe and go slowly.’ ~Thich Nhat Hanh This comes from zenhabits – Start Here, and ...
Cat & Mouse
The cat just brought a mouse into the house. It occurs to me that life could be much worse. Particularly if I was a mouse.
Forcing Solutions
This is part of the preamble to the 12 Step Fellowship that I found recovery in. Our thinking becomes distorted by trying to force solutions, and we become irritable and unreasonable without knowing it. #12steps Preamble — 12 Steps of Recovery (@12stepsrecovery) June 14, 2012 The statement begins with the qualifier that ‘without Spiritual help’, [...]
Abundant Life
A friend of mine brought a wonderful quotation to my attention, but she didn’t say where it came from. I apologise for not giving credit where it is due: The Abundant Life begins when we give up all hope of ever having a better past I am having some struggle with staying in the moment [...]
Left Behind
When I first came into recovery in 2009, I attacked recovery with all the fierceness and enthusiasm I bring to everything in my life. Old timers and literature told me that ‘Easy Does It’ & ‘One Step At A Time’, but I didn’t listen. I wanted to be healed, recovered & whole again. I wanted [...]
Daily Gratitude – Work
It seems like a weird thing to be grateful for, but when there isn’t much of it, I become aware of how precious and important work is to my wellbeing. Work often results in money which we all need to get by in the world, but it is more than just money. Work lets me [...]
Daily Gratitude – Changes
People say that a leopard doesn’t change it’s spots. They say that people don’t change. It isn’t true. People do change. People change themselves if they want to. I have wanted to change, and with a lot of hard work and patience, I have changed. I am so grateful that I no longer feel about [...]
Back on the Wagon
Last year was the most intense year, in my recent history. My year was full of reasons to stay on the straight and narrow, to immerse myself in 12 Steps and to recover as quickly as possible. I had relationship challenges, partner challenges, family challenges, work challenges, money challenges. By time I got to the [...]
Crazy Christmas
I don’t have much to say. I am full of feelings, a mess of thoughts, contradictions & plenty of food & drinks too. Christmas is a crazy time in South Africa because it also coincides with Summer holidays, year end parties and most of my family birthdays. I end up seeing rather a lot of [...]