I just had an experience that I’ve had lots of times before and I am really grateful for it. As I write my blog, the things that I write become clear to me, and often they also become true. I find this also happens when I keep my gratitude journal.
On days when I’m feeling dark and unhappy, I have to apply discipline to the act of writing, both on my blog and in my journal. On those days, when I force myself to write gratefully or positively (so that my readers don’t get into the dark place themselves), I come to believe the things I write. So even if I’ve had an argument with my sister and I write how grateful I am for her, I suddenly find myself to be grateful for my sister. If I write about how to get out of a hole, I often find myself out of the hole.
Earlier I wrote a blog about how I have lost perspective. It allows for a very uncomfortable, powerless feeling. By the time I got to the end of writing the post, I was feeling much more relaxed about the loss of perspective. I have even started feeling excited that a possibility exists that on the other side of this loss, is much greater clarity and beauty.
I am so grateful that as I write things about the way I feel on this blog, they very often become real. I am grateful that I have this space to work out my complicated feelings and thoughts. That I can grow and change as I share. And that I am growing and changing in the light, before you and not hiding at the bottom of my sock drawer, bound by lock & key.