I just had an experience that I’ve had lots of times before and I am really grateful for it. As I write my blog, the things that I write become clear to me, and often they also become true. I find this also happens when I keep my gratitude journal.
On days when I’m feeling dark and unhappy, I have to apply discipline to the act of writing, both on my blog and in my journal. On those days, when I force myself to write gratefully or positively (so that my readers don’t get into the dark place themselves), I come to believe the things I write. So even if I’ve had an argument with my sister and I write how grateful I am for her, I suddenly find myself to be grateful for my sister. If I write about how to get out of a hole, I often find myself out of the hole.
Earlier I wrote a blog about how I have lost perspective. It allows for a very uncomfortable, powerless feeling. By the time I got to the end of writing the post, I was feeling much more relaxed about the loss of perspective. I have even started feeling excited that a possibility exists that on the other side of this loss, is much greater clarity and beauty.
I am so grateful that as I write things about the way I feel on this blog, they very often become real. I am grateful that I have this space to work out my complicated feelings and thoughts. That I can grow and change as I share. And that I am growing and changing in the light, before you and not hiding at the bottom of my sock drawer, bound by lock & key.
I think you just exposed what I call ‘the dirty little secret’ of blogging. The one who benefits most is the blogger! Any benefit to onlookers is purely coincidental…
Thanks for letting us look over your shoulder as you figure this stuff out!